John Lennon - Happy Xmas (War Is Over)

Aretha Franklin - Do Right Woman

Aretha Franklin- "Do Right Woman" (Merv Griffin Show 1967)

http://www.youtube.com/v/N1MW6xXjW8g?version=3&autohide=1&showinfo=1&autohide=1&feature=share&autoplay=1&attribution_tag=EdlNGvUKGAgsSzDwrHflcA

Mumford & Sons - Broken Crown [HD] 3/7/12

Gerry Rafferty - Baker Street (Long Version)

Add it up - Violent Femmes

Fringing and Joplin

I guess since I can remember I have been trying to identity myself. Who am I? Where do I belong?  Who do I belong with? Why does it even matter (Fuck you society)

I have been a part of many groups, clicks, and other poorly identified sub-groups. In in 38+ years I have always tethered on the outer edge..
never really belonging just fringing...

curly red head baby surviving trailer park life,
catholic school girl wanna be
girl scout (badge earner)
big hair and neon (sorry ozone)
tinted windows and sub woofers (Can you say Keith Sweat),
student (again and again and one more time)
traveler (South Dakota loves me)
drug addict (and sharer to those in need and stop peeing on my doorstep)
drug dealers are us (I am sure I held some sort of high ranking position)
friend
girlfriend
lover
mistress
buddy (hey buddy)
vegetarian (cheese is your friend; can also be your enemy)
hippie (weekend warrior)
Dead Head (that is for life)

Victim (but that is a secret)

MOM (still hanging in there)

I do the things I am supposed to do. (Mostly)  and WHY are they staring? (Aren't they?) WHY are they questioning? (Giving Advice ?!?)


I ask him if he saw them (he always shakes his head no, trying to make me not feel crazy or maybe he means no)
I ask if he is embarrassed (always no, but I see the sad look, or do I? Maybe he is normal, but I'm no judge)


Maybe I am delusional (Walking around wide awake as the world sleeps)...I am certainly not sane..but not insane? Timothy Leary could have never predicted this!

So here I am; almost 40.

I have nothing physical.
Meaningless furnishings and LCD bliss
No 401
Very little 411
No hope of retiring into Emerson's world (oh to be on Walden Pond)

I have the love of a boy
grasping manhood
grasping at straws to identify himself
(thank you vicious and beautiful circle of life)

I have no advice
and the
blank stares
keep coming

I still do not belong
and that's
Kool (and the gang)

And then there are those times
when I do not care and
I will listen to Janis Joplin
no matter how cliche

CBR....Barefoot by the Cherry Tree

Watch "2012/12/16 - Chris Robinson Brotherhood, "Barefoot By the Cherry Tree", GAMH, SF, CA (cut)" on YouTube